The Drastic Change

 

It's another birthday, another year gone from life. Realized how I changed in just a matter of time.
I was a restrained introvert till my 6th grade. I was too shy to talk even with my parents. Whenever any guest would visit, my parents used to take me to greet them, at least. It's an etiquette which we have been taught since birth. I was so loved by everyone yet I used to shrank in myself. I didn't have friends, still don't have any. Other guardians had severe headache about this matter which is "why I don't communicate with people? Why am I only with myself? Why was I always a momma's girl? Blah blah blah..."
Things got slightly better in 7th grade when I lost my cousin brother who used to be our shelter. Now we have to fight on our own. I became an ambivert. I made some friends. The very  other guardians got some relief.
The Drastic Change appeared - From a restrained introvert to an extrovert sensor, in 9th grade. I am often asked, "how it happened? How do I manage to keep a smile on my face 24/7? How am I not bothered by people's bullshit? How do I counter them?" The answer is, at first it was "Fake it till you make it" policy. Then It just happened. It appeared like magic which made me how I am today. And Yes, the faith "even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise" kept me alive. Yes, I often suffer from depression, I have my dark days when the sun doesn't rise. But "This, shall, too pass." And once you get there, There is no coming back. The only positive thing about being an extrovert is people praise you and your parents feel proud of you. Another thing, It taught me to love people, to mix up with them, to listen to them, differentiate between who are actually for me and who are just for their own interest and at times, keeping myself away from the world.